This song is an ode to hope. Fighting hopelessness is a frequent theme in my music - and I wanted this song to swell like the feeling of victory, large, cinematic, empowering. I've realized what I was searching is something already possessed, and it feels like being set free. Now every moment can be seized.
Lyrics
Once I cared too much
I spent too much time wondering why
Wondering if I had enough
Gone in a phase that wouldn't fade
Lost in a very lonely place
Once I held my breath
Once it was very obvious
That life was a game I couldn't win
And home was a place I never lived
All this time was passing me by
But I was searching for something
Something I didn't have
And I'm starting to realize the things that I have
Coming to terms with happiness
Couldn't believe I second-guessed
Here I am, laughing to no end
I found my smile again
Once I was dependent on so much
Couldn't stand up on my own, I lost touch
Tossing and turning every night
And running away from every fight
All this time was passing me by
Little did I know that apathy always held my hand
Little did I know that misery was my best friend
Little did I know, little did I know
That I was searching for something
Something I didn't have
And I'm starting to realize the things that I have
Coming to terms with happiness, couldn't believe I second-guessed
Here I am, laughing to no end
I found my smile again